like a virgin

This is my first time posting a blog, well like other would say.."like a virgin". I think this would be my outlet for all the things I carry that no one knows about it. I'm sick and tired of being laugh for being me. Every movement I do, I thought that this would be right or wrong. Some would say that this is your conscience. I felt like I'm sinking in a quicksand that gradually take your every single breath.
My second purpose that I post here is maybe my english would improve. I need some development or achievement, even for the whole month that I'm not progressive anymore. I felt that I'm useless. Every single day, I try to do something that help me feel my purpose here in the earth.